_.Venetiaa._

Tuesday

2005-07-05T13:22:00.000-07:00

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Have u ever been in a situation where you felt everything and everyone around you is changing? They are no longer the same. Things are different now coz the environment has changes, people have changed and YOU have also changed.So much so that you struggle to make a conversation with people once meant the whole to you. You used to think that you won't change and things could possibly stay the same over time. But heck, who could have guessed? The person who actually changed the most is you.

Monday

2005-07-04T16:13:00.000-07:00

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one concerned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

What I really would love to do everyday, is to walk around without having to put on a mask. I don't want to force a smile or laughter. I don't want to force a conversation with people whom I don't want to speak to.

I just want to be myself.
I want to laugh when the joke is really funny.
I want to smile and laugh as I reminisce about all the happy moments I used to have.
I want to spend time with people who used to colour my life.

Sunday

2005-07-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.. It had been 3 months since I last blogged.. I stopped blogging because I didn't seem to have much to say. My mind always went blank as soon as I wanted to create a post. Within the span of 3 months, there have been some changes. No, I am not pregnant, nor am I married. hahahax.. =) There have been minor changes to my life. I feel free and at eased when i am at home. It is a place where I need not put on my mask. I need not portray fake smiles and laughters. It is a time when I am truly myself, instead of a hypocrite that I usually am. When i start thinking about what I really want in life. I ask myself all the "Whys", "Hows", "Whos" and "Whens". Funny enough, I never get the answers. If there is a word to describe my life at this point in time, it would be "Simple". I don't really care much about what goes on around me any more. If i really don't want to meet someone for lunch, I'd just say "Sorry, maybe next time"... instead of forcing myself to say "Yeah sure, what time?".. I have stopped going all out to please people. I would like to believe that I have matured to understand that we can’t always be pleasing everyone. It does not make you more likeable or more popular. Don't know if it is good or bad. But as I would now say.. I just don't care.

Tuesday

2005-04-26T15:24:00.000-07:00

So long never blog le.. Cause my mid-year exams coming le ma.. So must study hard ma.. Got no time to blog le.. =) I will try my best to blog when i got the time too.. Or maybe after the exams.. Okay le lar.. End here.. Need to go and study le.. Bye.. =)

Friday

2005-04-22T13:20:00.000-07:00

Today is Founder's Day lor.. So school ended early.. Today i got my Home Economics lessons la than i got back my test paper for Home Economics... I failed lor... I only got 13/30 lor.. Die le la.. I dunno what to tell my mother lei... :x.. I nearly pass.. How can i ever fail... Waaa... Anyway, i am sure that i will do better next time.. :D... My Home Economics teacher, Mrs Wong was angry with us and she was scolding us.. She said that all the teachers who is teaching us kept on complaining to our form teacher these and that.. She kept on repeating over and over the same old lines.. Then during my Geography lesson, our teacher, Ms Chao also scold us and even made us stay back until 11.40am.. Who she think she is to make us still back lor.. She even brought 4 teachers into our class to scold us at 10.55am when school when school is supposed to end already lor.. Okay le.. Dun wanna talk about it le la.. got to go and eat my lunch already.. Bye..

Thrusday

2005-04-21T19:07:00.000-07:00

I am so damn tired.. :x.. Just came came home after running for my 2.4km.. bleah.. I nearly fail my 2.4km run lor.. I took my own sweet time to walk lor... haha.. My timing sucks man.. Okay ler.. very tired already.. I still need to eat my dinner, take my bath, pack my bag, study then can sleep lor.. So i cannot waste any more time already.. I gonna end here le.. Blog again tomorrow... good night.. sweet dreams.. zzz..

Wednesday

2005-04-20T23:48:00.000-07:00

I'm back... =) Just finish studying.. haha.. Very late already.. Got to sleep now.. If not tomorrow cannot wake up.. =)

Wednesday

2005-04-20T15:27:00.000-07:00

Hey! I am back from school.... =) I had my History class test today lor.. Even though there is only 3 questions, the questions is damn difficult to do lor.. Haiz... What to do!! If i fail my test how??? bleah.. Let's not talk about this anymore.. Now... let's talk about what had happened in school today.. =) Today at around 12.45pm, 2 of my classmates(boys) were very angry with each other lor... This kind of things happens very often in my class 1.. hahahax.. =) I am already used to it.. bleah.. They went to the boys toilet to fight lor.. Siao.. Yucks.. Toilet so dirty and smelly 1.. Okay.. Let's continue with the story... They strangle each other until 1 of my friends, Kelvin fainted... When i heard about it.. I was so damn shock lor.. My friends kept on calling his name, "Kelvin... Kelvin.. But there was no reply so they went to splash water onto his face... After a while, he had finally opened up his eyes.. We were like, "Phew.. He's alright.." All of us was glad that he was fine... okay le.. I talk to much le.. Got to stop here... Later if i have the time to blog than i will blog lor.. Must study 1 mah.. Cannot whole day use the computer what right... hahahax... =)

Tuesday

2005-04-19T02:31:00.000-07:00

Hey!!! Today after school i went to Estar house to use her computer... =) She was helping me editing my blog lor... So thankful to her... I also use the time at her house to blog lor.. okay le lar.. I need to go home and study for my History class test that is coming soon.. Bleah... Studying so boring... End here le.. =) Blog in again when i got the time.. =)

So Boring

2005-04-16T17:26:00.000-07:00

Hey guys out there... I am back from the afternoon tea... So boring lor.. Go there and do nothing.. All we do is serve the parents food and drinks... I also not their maid... I ate same of the food too.. =) hahahax.. The food was made by my friends parents... The food was quite nice.. After the afternoon tea i walked to the Bishan interchange with my friends.. Than just nice when i reached the interchange it started to rain heavily... I waited for my bus to come than on the second bus-stop i saw my Literature teacher.. She also took the same bus as me.. She was drench.. After about 15 minutes later, i reached my stop and i alighted.. It was still raining heavily.. i still need to walk home and i didn't bring my umbrella.. So no matter what, i will get drench.. I love getting wet in the rain... =) After i reached home, i went to take my bath.. heehee.. Got to go and pack my room now.. Blog again when i got the time okay? See you again next time... =)

Boring

2005-04-16T10:18:00.000-07:00

Today at 1pm i need to go to school for the afternoon tea.. So boring man.. Parents and child need to go lor.. Even if parents never go child still must go lor... Blog again after i come back from the afternoon tea..

Funky

2005-04-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

Today i had my Physical Fitness Test (PFT)...bleah... We were told to assemble at the Parade Square in our PE attire and to report half an hour before the scheduled time... shit man... I am like sun tanning myself under the hot sun.. My inclined pull ups and sit and reach was terrible and horrible... I went back home after my PFT went to take my bath.. Then later around 2 plus went to Bishan Stadium as it was my primary school's sports day... I saw my ex-classmates... yepp.. Everthing ended like 4 plus. Then went to mac to meet Estar and we went juntion8 to grab some food... After that i need to go to the Anne Of Green Gabriel's Drama at NUS.. =) So Estar send me to the school gate as she is not going.. The drama was damn nice lor... yepp... The drama ended at around 10.30pm and we reached school at around 11.15pm.. By the time i got home it was around 11.55pm.. Okay.. Need to end here already.. Got to go and sleep now.. Bye.. =)

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